ECSTASY 🛸

I was doubting if I should write this, because there was a sense of wanting to keep this to myself; the same kind of feeling when you have found the affection of your Love, and you would want to keep the happenings, thoughts and feelings to yourself simply because you would want to contain all of the magic completely, until it has become something impenetrable.

However, it dawned upon me that nobody can take it away from me unless I say so. So I say, not.

Almost a fortnight ago, which felt like more than a moon ago, I experienced the most profound state; one that encompassed all feelings of blissfulness and love~~ the kind of love that surpasses any heart expansion, or the Love you could ever imagine, have experienced or have ever felt for the Divine.

It never really occurred to me that this sort of involuntary and spontaneous existed because I surely wasn’t seated in my meditation corner for practice, nor was I doing any breath-work.

And I sure was not on any psychedelics.

It happened one night, following weeks of unfolding events. I was seated in my chair in my study room, looking out at the sky, when suddenly, what felt like the last twist of the Rubik’s cube found itself, and everything else unfolded into the final piece ~ and it felt like everything was rearranging itself.

I started to feel a tiny electric pulsation in my heart and it started growing, I was not scared as it was happening, simply because there was no fear, judgement or interpretation attached to the physical sensation; just experiencing what is. Unlike the feeling of an anxiety attack I had experienced some decade ago.

As the tiny electric pulsation grew more intense and expansive... a feeling grew together with it.

This feeling of being plugged directly into the Source from the core of my being; my heart. A feeling of pure blissful love ecstasy this massive energy emanating entirely from within, into everything, where it felt as though I was in this massive etheric space at the same time I was that space and everything else was none. The massive beautiful gorgeous energy was charging up my entire vessel, the entire time...

It’s the kind of feeling that you would feel on psychedelics if I could explain it, but infinitely purer and only there was no visual experience.

The peak, so to say, lasted for about 2.5 hours that night and I could not sleep afterwards. I only managed to get some shut-eye once the sun rose into the sky. I stayed in bed all day the next day. The feeling lingered until the following evening and I simply let myself bask in it... and it felt like something in the air shifted. One thing I know, my heart has been pulsating a little differently...

I still cannot locate the exact words to describe it.

How did I come to experience this state ? Is this what the Sages call Samadhi ? Satori ? Is this the sweetness of the Beloved that Rumi held in his pen ?

Perhaps the Divine and Love have been the object of my meditation for these past 15 years, since I first started my journey of finding and innerstanding the nature and truth of the Divine. Perhaps it was the years of longing to be in a true Divine Sacred Union calling in the True Divine Soul , perhaps it was the….

It doesn’t really matter how I came about it all I know is that ….the usual urge to analyse and connect the dots was absent. Instead, I let myself be.

For now, I am just staying being ~ and perhaps that is the pathless path: allowing myself to not know, as my teacher(s) said.

Journaled 11 August 2026

Forever grateful, forever Love.

Still wandering around this Planet in my Soul.

xxoo

Love always,

💕M